Good news is nothing more has happened and my friend and I have calmed down.
Bad news is I drank last night. Since my big stretch of 45 days I can get 10 days together but can’t seem to get past that.
Good news is I used to black out drink every single night for years. Never getting past a day 1. A couple years ago I started to get maybe 3 days in a row and truly began learning about being an alcoholic. Now, since Novemberish I have spent about 90% of my nights sober.
Bad news…well enough of the bad news!
In one of my sober books – Sober For Good – Anne Fletcher interviews people with long term sobriety and all the different ways they got there as well as how they maintain it. My favorite lady said it took her 7 years to finally get sober. She never gave up.
That resonates with me. When I diet, skip exercise, don’t clean the house, whatever, I feel a little bad but not really a big deal. With drinking though, it means that I have not addressed an important issue in me. I now know that it isn’t just being lazy or having an unrealistic expectation like not getting the dishes in the dishwasher every single night. Drinking is now a statement about my mental health.
Yes, I wish starting a blog would have been the “thing” that kept me completely sober. Blogging has made the difference between drinking every 3 days to where I am now. It is my journey, however long it takes, to keep getting more of the sober days, better mental health and enough lessons learned to stay sober. That’s really good news!