The story ended at Day 45 last time. Then it took 5 more months to get it back.
The ten days between 40 & 50 days have been hard. Too hard to even talk about. No crisis. Just regular life, on the downish side of life’s ups and downs.
Hard in the sense of alcohol cravings. I don’t want them. Not the alcohol or the cravings.
I wanted some more calm and happy, some more time to gather strength to face the cravings. And I really didn’t want to reach out to talk about it.
Why? …I dunno…Just cuz…
See, that’s why I didn’t want to talk about it. Cuz…I just don’t know.
Know what I mean?