I don’t know if Doer is even a real word but it fits what I want exactly.
The concept came from A Year of Yes by Shonda Rhimes. Dreamers vs Doers. I am a dreamer. I LOVE to plot and plan and organize myself, my family & my staff in cute calendars and planners with fun stickers and bright markers. But…what really gets DONE? Not much.
I put in what I will clean, who I will call, how many bills will get paid, the appointments, each meal & snack. But the dreams…oh the dreams… those have a separate Mead 5 Star notebook in different colors and always the #2 Ticonderoga perfectly sharpened, obsessively sharpened, yellow pencil.
The dream notebooks are my journals. Every “I wish I could stop drinking” sob story, the weight loss & exercise plans, the self-help quizzes and self-discovery, grocery lists, plans for travel, the future me.
Last year my turn around point was applying “Massive Action” to my drinking problem. I DID something. Rewards, treats, actvities and most importantly – people. Real humans. Not case studies in a self-help book.
I believe that there are two things that change me.
Movement & People
Interactions & exercise. Get out of the chair & go to lunch. Blog & take the dog for a walk. Join a group & find a real-life yoga teacher. Go to a movie (both people & movement). Sounds great right? But…
With this movement & people action, sadly comes failure. When I am home in my recliner, writing my dreams I can control the outcomes. When I leave this safe place bad things can happen.
And they did.
This last one took me down for two months. I found myself and my kids not getting dressed for a week. Ordering our necessities online instead of going to the store. Streaming tv and downloading books. Not blogging or reading. I kept making my world so small that I could control it again.
Maybe I’m just healing? I really wanted that to be true. I wasn’t depressed but I was disinterested. I had lost my desire to get up and try again. I just wasn’t doing…anything.
So this year is going to be about doing. Being a DOER and a dreamer. Movement & People. Less isolation and more interaction. TV and treadmill. Walking and talking. Reading and writing. Failing and getting up. And getting up…. And getting up… And getting up…..