This summer we all flipped bedrooms to maximize exposure to the most air conditioning possible…and my youngest and I are going to keep it this way. (He made himself a 14 year old man-cave in my old closet.) As part of doing some massive self-care to recover from this breakup, I moved my mattress last night. I got to sleep in my own bed again with clean sheets.
The craving to drink was pretty strong but I had some Squirt in a Pioneer Woman goblet and watched Big Brother and So You Think You Can Dance. I still didn’t sleep well but am plugging along.
I chose to go to a tax class yesterday just to have some girl time, even though I didn’t do the homework and my eyes were still red & swollen. That was an excellent self-care choice. I am not alone on this issue of panic when someone pulls back. My girlfriend learned in therapy that it comes from low self-esteem. What?!? Not me?!? Haha
Even through all this work of getting sober, rewards and self-care I’m not done working on myself. I would really like to say – How can anyone not like me, I’m FABULOUS! (Actually I did just say that. So there.)
- I have another lunch planned with friends.
- I’m blogging.
- I got out the directions for the treadmill (baby steps).
- And I’m going to push hard at the thing that helps me the most – getting a schedule in place to get caught up. My brain is too foggy from emotions to actually do the work, but a schedule breaking it down to three manageable items a day works wonders.
Hopefully Monday finds me back on track as far as work issues. This breakup thing will take time and tears.