Having two really old cars for my boys reminds me to be thankful that I can still afford a 10 year old NICE car for myself! I have a Honda Odyssey that is basically a fancy pick up truck for a woman, well, this woman. I haul everything in that vehicle! The boyfriend has the BIG work pickup trucks that I have to climb into on my knees and a stick shift that is as long as my leg. One truck doesn’t even have a dash board, it just looks like the insides of a robot. I drive all these BOY vehicles but I do miss my pretty stuff 😉
I had never given much thought to vehicles before. I like all the new tech gadgets, but when it comes to repairs, it is expensive!! My son’s car repair bill came to…. $106. What?!? I don’t think I have ever spent that little. My van repair from the Honda dealer was going to be $1800. What?!? I found someone else, but still.
I put gas in the teenager’s car and filled it for less than $20. I even re-read the receipt to be sure. It gets 32mpg. My van needs twice as much for everything. The Saturn is a fun little car to drive but it has a ‘straight pipe’ instead of a muffler so I feel and sound like a teenage boy when I drive it. Lol
Learning to figure out where to invest time and energy to maintenance and repairs has been my lesson through this car adventure. ALL my headaches would not have happened with proper maintenance. I am a complete novice at car maintenance, but I can learn, and I can help my boys learn too.
It feels the same with sobriety & self-care. I need to be a little kinder to myself that I don’t know everything and to be a little more patient with the learning process. The sober blogs have been my “manuals”. Reading what others do to MAINTAIN is extremely helpful. Unfortunately, I have a tendency to want to just keep driving as long as it runs, not taking the time to check the air pressure or wiper fluid or brakes.
My continuing relapses and my ongoing car trouble are signs that I am not giving my best effort at maintenance. I am a little scared about both. It seems like another thing to add to my plate, even though I know not taking care of cars or sobriety, can lead to an accident or death. Both my cars and hangovers have led to missing work and lots of money and frustration.
So, back at it today. I am thankful to have 2 of my 3 cars fixed. And am thankful and happy to have another day sober.