I went back and read all my December posts from the last 5 years. There were a couple I couldn’t even read. Sometimes life is heartbreaking.
But after so many years of pain I sit here (at 55 years old!) having myself a sober Merry Little Christmas.
It’s not too late Scrooge!
Sometimes it feels like I will never get to 100% sober. One of the old posts reminded me of a speaker at a meeting, 10 years sober, 3 years drinking, followed by 18 years sober. Is that a failure or success? Today I choose success. I had a billion hungover Christmas mornings, but not this one.
If I hadn’t attempted to get sober (a billion times!) I wouldn’t be having THIS morning.
I haven’t seen any blog posts of people struggling with their drinking lately. Maybe blogs are out and instagram is in? I see lots of successful people sharing – yah! But if you are like me, a little slow and a little late to the party, hang in there. Words are still better than pictures for me.
Everyday I wake up and the plan is to stay sober just today.
It took me a long time to get here.
Merry Christmas to me.