I love working from home. I’m very good at it and actually can sink my teeth into long boring projects. But I looked up and September is almost over!
I’ve had quite a summer of “I will never drink again, hang overs, moderation, not drinking, and maybe I will just try this” conversations with myself. I’m quite tired of my own b.s.. I’ve spent the last couple nights not drinking. And therefore, not sleeping. Good old addiction. When I started this journey I knew nothing of addiction – I just blamed myself.
I don’t want to say that it isn’t about me & my choices, but addiction is a medical truth. The words I use can either be a victim voice or a knowledge voice. Passing out vs going to bed. Can’t sleep vs waking up from sugar imbalance. Exhaustion & stomach ache from covid vs withdrawl. It’s just medical not a drama crisis moment.
Even though it’s only 2 nights of not drinking I will take it. I need to trust in the process that my body just needs a hot minute to adjust. I’m uncomfortable and we all know what happens then!! I’ve gotten very good at rewarding and being kind to myself. Yeah me! But I’m feeling an urge to push myself a little bit more. I’m happy, have free time and home. Two sober nights closer to a little bit better than the day before.