Just kidding!! I am so stumped this year.
I thought I had it with LESS. Because Less was going to lead to IMPOSSIBLE the next year.
Less stuff – getting ready to sell my house next year (Impossible!)
Less weight – leading to being done losing weight the next year.
Less alcohol – leading to no alcohol the next year.
Less attachments – leading to sell my business and move away from the area the next year.
Then I thought I was copping out and should shoot for IMPOSSIBLE this year! Then I was like, nope. I’m not there. (Plus senior year of high school for my youngest starts this year – not going to move just yet 😉
LESS feels like not trying. IMPOSSIBLE feels, well, impossible.
I thought maybe I should continue CHANGE since I really picked up momentum with that in December. But that’s not right either. I need a fresh new start.
Both words feel a little finite. They feel like a goal rather than an open ended process. Manifestation is such a hot buzzword currently. Maybe that’s why neither word is fitting. They feel like specific manifestations not a place of intention.
When I counsel clients on starting a new business I always (try) to get them to define their exit strategy. How will you know you have acheived your goal? I ask lots of “And then what?….” questions. I can usually tell if a business will succeed or fail based on those answers.
I am going through a time of asking myself these same questions about my life. I have lived in this town almost 25 years. It’s not my space. It is my exes hometown. I chose to raise our children here to stay close to him and his family. An exit strategy needs to happen for me.
I want to try new locations, eat new food, maybe find a partner, but not until my kid graduates. Dream? Prepare? In Limbo? I think this is the sticking point for 2020. A holding pattern.
I don’t want this year to be “just wait” until the kid graduates and I can “start” my new life.